“From Almost to Ever-Evolving: A Warrior’s Journey”

Christel Payseng
2 min readOct 24, 2024

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Someone once asked me, “Do you always run away? When things get tough, do you just give up if they don’t meet your standards? Or if you dislike someone, do you just walk away?” I realized then that if I walked away, I would always be just “an almost.”

Those words echoed in my mind for years. Am I really like that? Just a spark that fades — good at the start but never finishing anything? It left a bitter taste in my mouth. I had to leave that situation because my mental health couldn’t handle it. It took years of self-discovery. Only when I sought help from our Divine Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ — the Great “I Am” — did my strength truly begin to grow.

This doesn’t mean my challenges are easy now. In fact, they’re harder — more obstacles, more triggers, more chaos. I have to balance my family, life, friends, and business partners, which feels impossible on my own. It was only when I acknowledged my need for Jesus Christ that I found the strength within me growing. I saw myself evolving — becoming less spiteful and more grateful.

This year, I finally faced and completed two major challenges. Just when I thought that was it, I discovered there are even higher levels to reach — territories I’ve never explored before. What gives me peace at night is knowing I’m not alone. I will finish well, with Almighty God by my side.

Of course, I still struggle with problems like my love life, mostly due to my stubbornness and past traumas. There’s fear, but I know I will eventually grow and find answers in God’s time. Even the mightiest servants of God, like Moses and King David, went through their shaping process — no one succeeds on the first try.

But it feels good to see progress in other areas of my life, all thanks to God’s immense glory and vision. What I didn’t have before, I now see clearly — no amount of evil can touch me. I’m in full armor. I’m in full warrior mode.

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